I wonder if some folks are called to a LIFETIME of pastoral ministry...while others may serve as pastors, but really serve in a way more akin to the office of Helps?That is, there is a need for a pastor, and they fill that need until another assignment is given to them by the Lord. I have wondered also if serial pastors--I'm not sure that is a term, but by it I mean men of God who either start or helm a church, staying for perhaps only a year or two before handing it off to someone who has a longer time horizon--are a tool in God's toolbox for certain situations?It sure seems like there are (at least) two distinct camps of pastors: Those who go and stay for no less than, maybe, seven years (or even stay for DECADES)...and those who have a much shorter turn-around. It is easy to argue that the long-terms are real pastors, while the others are trying to find their way, or find the church they are actually supposed to serve at. However, I am not convinced those things are the full story. There are just some men/women who can come in with great energy and effect, getting a church up and running, or holding it together, or weathering a storm...and then there are those men and women who seem gifted to disciple, to build up, to develop, to have long-range vision/goals. I remember in Richard Nixon's book Leaders, he mentioned that some leaders are best in times of war, but are not what the people are looking for in times of peace. Likewise, the Native Americans had war chiefs who led the tribe during times of war, but did not lead during times of peace.Although I cannot speak for how you feel about your calling in the past, I am convinced that God has used you over and over to bring encouragement, to generate excitement, etc. It MAY be the case that you are thinking of pastoring as a calling that is for a lifetime, rather than for a season--that is, you may have been serving as a pastor, but under your gifting in HELPS (planting a church, keeping it going until it got its footing, etc.). I have trouble thinking you totally missed it by becoming a pastor. It just may be that you were serving as a help rather than as a formal pastor (which, I think, often has a longer time frame).Just my thoughts. I'm not making a doctrine out of it. I just have to think that you did well as a pastor because God blessed you. If you ran aground for some reason, it MIGHT be that it was at least partially caused by a imperfect understanding of what you were called to do. Maybe?I know that while I feel called to serve the church in whatever capacity I can, I don't feel like I am even remotely in the league of men who serve for decades and do so successfully. It may be that I'm just palliative care...or perhaps a place-holder until someone arrives who has the gift to truly do a great job...or perhaps I'm just someone who, there being no one else wanting the job, got called in as a last resort.