Don't let the title throw you. I do realize it sounds bad, but I purposely titled it as such. It really is an encouraging message!I have made some mistakes in my time thus far as a minister. 2 churches, both of which either needed shutting down, or a massive change of the linguistic type (Spanish, that is, which it is now and is thriving) have left me learning a great deal about myself. I won't go into too much detail. One, I've learned that God gifts some people for certain tasks. God also places burdens on those people, and it is incumbent upon the leader to both recognize and utilize those people. I lost a great family in my first pastorate, likely because I didn't use someone as I should've. We talked about it. We brainstormed over coffee. But for reasons I still don't know, we never got our plans off the ground. When I just should've set him loose and let him run, I didn't. Eventually, they moved on. I can't blame them.I realized where my areas of expertise are, and more importantly, where they aren't. I'm not an administrator. I don't have the patience, the focus to handle a lot of tedious tasks. I have a wife who can and does, and we are perfect for each other in that way. I realized that I can have a great idea, but without people to help see that idea take flight (these were small, older churches with little help), those ideas just seem to die off.I realized how much I love people. I truly do. If pastoring today was people business only, I'd do great. Let someone else handle the finances, etc.. Just let me shepherd God's flock, and do the work of an evangelist. I also realized just how much I enjoy preaching and teaching. I love opening up the Word of God, and giving the church something that will take them through their day, their week. I love giving them something that will bring growth, and help them become the people God is molding them into.I realized that I love leading worship. As a worshiper, I find it life-changing to love on God, and bask in His presence. As a musician and singer, music has always been my go-to thing, but to use it to lead God's people into the Throneroom of Grace, to prepare them from the Word of God, is a privilege and a blessing. Is God done with me as a lead pastor? Perhaps. I really feel that having had the experiences I have has helped me to see where I fit in. And God has changed me for the better through those experiences. I know what pastors deal with now. I've felt the weight of need, and the worry of budgets, and the uncertainty that poor weather can bring (having pastored in the Chicago area). I just want to find a place where I can be a blessing to not just the man of God leading, but also to the people. Just my own thoughts and experience The World As I See Ithttp://worldjeffreysees.blogspot.com/Revuriah's Facebookhttp://www.facebook.com/people/Jeff-Richard/1226257444Jeffrey David Richard's Myspace Musicwww.myspace.com/547856946